Never Forsaken

1B19A701-F0DB-43A2-8897-3ABF1EDB5C542 Corinthians 12:7-9
(7) So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations,
a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. (8) Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. (9) But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

At the tender age of four, I experienced my very first sexual encounter. I am now well into my late 40s, and my childhood experiences silently creep back into areas of life til this very day. This blog will be filled with truth, transparency, heartache, pain, tears and revelation. But, there will amazing moments of healing and laughter, friendships and forgiveness. For years, GOD has been tugging at my heartstrings to share my story. Only until now, do I spiritually feel strong enough to become obedient. My LORD reminds me that the enemy WANTS me to suffer in silence. Satan wants me to feel shamed. My PURPOSED ISOLATION gives the enemy direct access to my thoughts and dreams. But no more!!! I must continually remind myself that I am a daughter of the most high KING.

So, walk with me as I begin the spiritual journey of healing. Never before have I shared my story. BUT GOD continues to press upon my heart, that my testimony must be told. Join me in celebrating a Spiritual Healing that comes ONLY from having a personal, intimate relationship with GOD. I believe that the spiritual writing of my life, will be used by GOD to empower others who too, suffer in silence. Silence for us is deafening…..until we are given a voice. Please know, GOD HAS NEVER LEFT YOU. This I know. {Genesis 50:20} – As for you (Satan), you meant evil against me, but GOD meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today.

You see, I am a Baccalaureate prepared Registered Nurse of almost 20 years, who see in my patients, what I once saw in myself. Men or women, overwhelmed with personal heartache and pain; invisible to most; unwanted by others…lost souls left unloved. We (‘Professionals’ of today’s society), often JUDGE people quickly, without knowing their story. Not taking a moment to listen to his or her testimony…..not being Christ-like in the work force. But instead, we quickly judge, label people, condemn them, and write them off as outcasts of society.

BUT I thank GOD for allowing my pain and despair to be used for the good. I am a fierce protector of GOD’s people. I was POSITIONED & PURPOSED to be a caregiver. I have reflected on the good, bad, and ugly moments of my life, and I smile, because I know that GOD NEVER LEFT ME. I give him the glory of who I am NOW in Christ! I yearn for GOD to use me, because you see….any one of my patients COULD HAVE BEEN ME.


Foreshadows of Things To Come

Our GOD, is so amazing.

His presence in all things continue to resonate into Honor, Glory, Gratefulness and Gratitude for the way He demonstrate His unconditional love for me.

Last night with my Beloved Husband was so spiritually beautiful, that I have no words…. As I reflect on all of the divinely orchestrated flickers of majestic moments intimately created just for my Beloved and I, I remain humbly in awe! I am astounded by our LORD’s unselfish love for us. If I could have taken a picture, and soundbite of that moment in time, it would complement the visual art work of double rainbows – majestically! I now know that when the LORD guides me to mental images of my spoken word…lyrically….it then becomes a hint of revelation…a foreshadowing of moments that will come to pass. I love you Father.

Heaven on Earth

I am so in love with God’s creation of paradise on earth! Having the honor of waking up to the intimate whispers of God’s voice in the sweet Tradewinds of Hawaii fills my spirit with joy. The crashing sounds of ocean waves, in the midst of nightfall, reminds me of His ultimate power. Witnessing the rising of each morning’s sun, brings me into remembrance of His covenant of Love. My Beloved Husband and I give thanks for God’s endless blessings of new Grace & Mercy. We are thankful. We are blessed.

1 Chronicles 16:23-34 [KJV]

(23) Sing unto the Lord, all the earth;

shew forth from day to day his salvation.

(24) Declare his glory among the heathen;

his marvellous works among all nations.

(25) For great is the Lord, and greatly to be praised: he also is to be feared above all gods.

(26) For all the gods of the people are idols:

but the Lord made the heavens.

(27) Glory and honour are in his presence;

strength and gladness are in his place.

(28) Give unto the Lord, ye kindreds of the people, give unto the Lord glory and strength.

(29) Give unto the Lord the glory due unto his name: bring an offering, and come before him: worship the Lord in the beauty of holiness.

(30) Fear before him, all the earth:

the world also shall be stable, that it be not moved.

(31) Let the heavens be glad, and let the earth rejoice: and let men say among the nations, The Lord reigneth.

(32) Let the sea roar, and the fulness thereof:

let the fields rejoice, and all that is therein.

(33) Then shall the trees of the wood sing out at the presence of the Lord, because he cometh to judge the earth.

(34) O give thanks unto the Lord; for he is good; for his mercy endureth for ever.

♡ Poetry in Motion ♡

Evidence of a GODLY Man

Without doubt, I know that I was PURPOSED and uniquely designed to be my Husband’s Queen.

He is the most beautiful Spirit-Man that I have ever met. I am so in awe of our spiritual oneness.

The parallels of our universe were divinely orchestrated…as if we were separated at birth. He is Me. We are One.

I would remarry him tomorrow if I could! My spirit has been in love with him since the moment his voice made melodic love to my ears on the eve of January 4th.

He has christened my mind with a simple touch of love. His smile holds me captive for days…yet, I do not wish to be released from its grip.

For some reason…even then…I Just Knew. He is the one. The template from which I was created…I am his rib. Fashioned by the very hands of GOD.

Edwin is poetry in motion to me…and my love for Him is eternal. He is my Lord, King & Spiritual Warrior. Never again shall I fear. I know that He loves me.

My Beloved Edwin is EVERY MAN TO ME! God-Body……Oneness with our Creator. A Man who honors his Queen….A thought provoking lover of this feminine being…A challenger of the mind’s eye…

A Man who loves GOD…A noble MAN among men. My Lord & King, I Love You.

Through the Eyes of a Goddess

I remember writing this poem in my early 20s, primarily because I truly felt that NO ONE ever saw the GOD in me.

They only saw “physical” attributes – the way walked, the curviness of my hips or breasts….but never me.

Men simply replaced the face of my abuser. But, that was love, right? I mean that’s what I was taught by my abuser. That’s how I was shown ‘love.’ From the age of four “SEX WAS NORMAL.”

Through The Eyes of a Goddess

Your Secret is Revealed…

With the softness of whispers

I boldly Say to thee

Why Do You Say “I Love You

your words are Void, empty, untrue.

Is it the EXQUISITE beauty

within my soul You seek.

or the humble way

I Honor OUR Creator

on bended knee.

is it the Lust within your Loins

That make you FEIN for Me **

Is it the Quiet way that I pray for you

Throughout the THICKNESS of Night fall

Or Simply the HARDNESS of your bronzed

colored Manhood and idol thoughts

That makes you throb So Rhythmically…

Is it my Fierce Loyalty

to OUR Dreams, Passions & Desires

My zeal to share ‘life’….longing to be with you

Walking hand-in-hand

in absolute fellowship of Christ…

Or is it JUST the way my WOMANHOOD

Receives You….

**** Warm, Wet, Deliciously **** 

Not a Proverbs 31 Queen

But some side chick wanna

Metaphorically, I say to thee…

Its Not Hidden Beauty or HONOR You Seek –

Nor is it the GOD in me


Its the Curvature of MY perfect THICKNESS

The roundness of my supple, sweet breasts

The creaminess of my Flawless Brown Skin

and Softness of My Succulently Round Lips

***That KEEPS your Attention***

For we BOTH know

That You Do NOT Love Me *


Your EVERY Fantasy…..

But just so you know……

I AM what you should wish every woman

to be —

Intellectually Sensual,



A GODLY woman on bended knee

For I represent all of God’s children…


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