Never Forsaken

1B19A701-F0DB-43A2-8897-3ABF1EDB5C542 Corinthians 12:7-9
(7) So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations,
a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. (8) Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. (9) But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

At the tender age of four, I experienced my very first sexual encounter. I am now well into my late 40s, and my childhood experiences silently creep back into areas of life til this very day. This blog will be filled with truth, transparency, heartache, pain, tears and revelation. But, there will amazing moments of healing and laughter, friendships and forgiveness. For years, GOD has been tugging at my heartstrings to share my story. Only until now, do I spiritually feel strong enough to become obedient. My LORD reminds me that the enemy WANTS me to suffer in silence. Satan wants me to feel shamed. My PURPOSED ISOLATION gives the enemy direct access to my thoughts and dreams. But no more!!! I must continually remind myself that I am a daughter of the most high KING.

So, walk with me as I begin the spiritual journey of healing. Never before have I shared my story. BUT GOD continues to press upon my heart, that my testimony must be told. Join me in celebrating a Spiritual Healing that comes ONLY from having a personal, intimate relationship with GOD. I believe that the spiritual writing of my life, will be used by GOD to empower others who too, suffer in silence. Silence for us is deafening…..until we are given a voice. Please know, GOD HAS NEVER LEFT YOU. This I know. {Genesis 50:20} – As for you (Satan), you meant evil against me, but GOD meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today.

You see, I am a Baccalaureate prepared Registered Nurse of almost 20 years, who see in my patients, what I once saw in myself. Men or women, overwhelmed with personal heartache and pain; invisible to most; unwanted by others…lost souls left unloved. We (‘Professionals’ of today’s society), often JUDGE people quickly, without knowing their story. Not taking a moment to listen to his or her testimony…..not being Christ-like in the work force. But instead, we quickly judge, label people, condemn them, and write them off as outcasts of society.

BUT I thank GOD for allowing my pain and despair to be used for the good. I am a fierce protector of GOD’s people. I was POSITIONED & PURPOSED to be a caregiver. I have reflected on the good, bad, and ugly moments of my life, and I smile, because I know that GOD NEVER LEFT ME. I give him the glory of who I am NOW in Christ! I yearn for GOD to use me, because you see….any one of my patients COULD HAVE BEEN ME.


Published by Spiritual Beauty Through Brokenness

A Baccalaureate prepared Registered Nurse of almost 20 years, pursuing a Master’s of Art Degree (M.Div.) specializing in Healthcare Chaplaincy, Pastoral and Crisis Counseling. I am also a spiritual survivor of childhood sexual abuse, which led to severe teenage depression, suicidal ideation and emotional loss. Healthcare Chaplaincy areas of interest: Clinical Depression, PTSD, Anxiety/Depression, Palliative Care and Death & Dying.

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